And maybe it's time to live up to my life; maybe it's time to make it all right. Screw limitations, screw imperfections, i'm thinkin what the hell? (:

"When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure." - Peter Marshall.

“So hold her closer when she cries, hold her closer when she feels. She needs a hand to hold, someone who will never let her go again. And hold him closer when he tries to hold the tears back from his eyes. Don't say goodbye.”

Song: Hold Her Closer

 

“I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart.And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.”

 

"If we all discovered that we had only five minutes left to say all that we wanted to say, every telephone booth would be occupied by people calling other people to tell them that they loved them."

- Christopher Morley

  

Immature love says "I love you because I need you." Mature love says "I need you because I love you."

- Erich Fromm

 

The loving are the daring.

- Bayard Taylor

 

What we can do for another is the test of powers; what we can suffer is the test of love.

- Brooke Foss Westcott

 

The irony of love is that it guarantees some degree of anger, fear and criticism.

- Harold H. Bloomfield

 

It has been wisely said that we cannot really love anybody at whom we never laugh.

- Agnes Repplier

 

The entire sum of existence is the magic of being needed by just one person.

- Vi Putnam

 

Love is what you've been through with somebody. (:

But one always returns to one's first loves.

- Etienne

 

 

Love must have wings to fly away from love, And to fly back again.

- Edwin Arlington Robinson

 

 

'Tis better to have loved and lost, Than never to have loved at all.

- Lord Alfred Tennyson

This is why i was scared of you.

I drove past someone from my past today, and I smiled.
I smiled because back then, I thought that something went wrong.
But now? Now I see that everything that happened was meant to be.
All the mistakes and regrets of my past  have put me where I am today. My troubles have made me stronger. My struggles as well. But through everything I've gone through... has made me who I am.
I am who I am, no approval needed.
Everything I've gone through throughout my life has lead me and put me where I am today. I have everything I could ever ask for.
And above all, love.

 

Everybody Hurts

I want somebody to stop me.
Stop me from being this way.
Stop me from being scared.
Stop me from hurting.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u9Ayk_-rXaY

I want you to hold me. Run after me when I walk. Catch my arm and pull me close. Don't let me go. Please.



Rescue me, from myself.

Numb.

It's the familiar, unwanted feeling washing over you all over again.
It's that uneasy feeling in the bottom of your heart.

It's the fear.

Sometimes...

Sometimes your voice just leaves no sound in the crowd.

Sometimes your word will leave no remarks, no second thoughts. 

Sometimes your song leaves no lasting tune. 

Sometimes you need to run away to see who will come after you. ♥ 

Sometimes it seems safer to hold it all in, where the only person who can judge is yourself. 

Though you take the steps you choose, sometimes the path as a whole is unknown until you are too far down to know how to get out, how to find your way back.

Sometimes we need to hit that lowest point of being sad, the point where you can't take it anymore and you completely lose yourself, to finally get back on your feet again. Without fear there would be no accomplishment, no testing of our limitations. 

Sometimes, the only way to be happy is to give into sadness first. Because without sadness, there's no happiness, you would never learn to smile...

Sometimes...sometimes you just get scared. Of what reality might really truly look like, be. 

Sometimes you're more so of a burden than a beauty.

Or maybe it's more so than simply sometimes.

You asked me tonight if I still loved you...

not a moment passed, nor did any thought cross my mind but "I Do."

June 21, 2012...the beginning of everything for us.

I do love you, every part of you, the good times, funny times, sad times, rough times. The way you lighten up the room, the way you see through what others don't, the way you make me smile, the way you make a difference to so many people in so many ways without even knowing it. I love the you that is stubborn and determined, strong and dedicated, motivated and driven. The you that is a true southern gentleman, the you that will always be a child at heart, the you that has a personality and heart like no other. The you that I, among many, look up to.


I do know that the past 6 years have been a roller coaster. I know that the past 6 years have been life. I know that everything happens for a reason. I know that you have to break, to see how strong you can still stand on your own. I know that Hell is nothing but how you look at it. I know that only you can change things. I know that taking a chance, can mean changing your world. I know that sometimes, you should take the chance, do the thing that scares you the most. And see where you end up, because for me, it meant that everything fell back into place. ♥

I didn't know, 6 years ago this August...how much of a difference the boy sitting behind me, kicking my seat in class, would make in my life.
I didn't know, 5 years ago this October, a phone call from a number I didn't recognize, inviting me to a hayride I regrettably didn't attend, would be a number which is family.
I didn't know, 5 years ago this December, a necklace would ever mean so much to me.
I didn't know, 4 years ago this past January, a shy yet outgoing boy would ask me to be his girlfriend.
I didn't know, 4 years ago this Spring, what it was like to begin to feel like I found someone.
I didn't know, 4 years ago this Fall, how close this boy and I would be as best friends.
I didn't know, 3 years ago this past February, how how much he went through, and I was there for, would do for our friendship.
I didn't know, 3 years ago this month, how much getting the guts to do something I was scared of, would change my life. I didn't know how getting on the back of his dirtbike and dancing around the house would become a memories both loved and cried of.
I didn't know, 3 years ago this Spring, how much of an impact and love grew between two kids.
I didn't know, 3 years ago this July 30, if things would ever be the way I loved, wished them to be; had no way to know if I would ever be able to truly be unbroken again. I didn't know how strong I was til I had nothing...and turns out I wasn't that strong.
I didn't know, 3 years ago this July 30, that for the next 20 months, I would be going through my own Hell, and silent cries, unspoken glances, fake smiles, wishes, hopes, regrets, fears.
I didn't know, 1 year ago this past February, how a mixed message could be a glimmer of hope it turned out to be.
I didn't know, 1 year ago March 6, how taking a chance and going for it....could spark.
I didn't know, 1 year ago last Saturday, March 12, 2011 at 11:11 PM, how real and amazing things could pick right back up to be again.

I didn't know where life would take us, and still have no way of knowing. But something brought us back together for a reason, and if I do know one thing, it's that I love you with ALL my heart.

Forever and always, I swear.

Athazagoraphobia-
The fear or strong reaction to forgetting, being ignored, or generally anything dealing with forgetfulness. It can also be related to depression, anger, or deliberate isolation caused by oneself being forgotten, or dealing with a death and therefore being forgotten about by that dead someone.

The most meaningful quotes

 

·          1. Holding onto broken hearts memories are what's left of us you're trying too hard to be my friend & I’m placing all our pictures in these broken frames to remind me never to fall in love again…
·          Time stands still when no one understands you and you don't quite understand yourself. Today didn't have to be this way, tomorrow is another day, another chance to make things right.
·          We're friends, real friends. & That means, no matter how long it takes, when you finally do decide to look back, I'll be here.
·          Don't give up on love because there is always someone who loves you, even if it's not the person you were hoping for.
·          If a guy really likes you he'll listen to what you have to say and not what he hears from others.
·          You know you're in love when you see that someone & your heart flutters, your stomach gets butterflies, & the rest of the world disappears.
·          I'm glad you're happy. Really. I'm glad you're in love. Just remember no matter how many guys come & go we'll always be together. Friends last longer than lovers.
·          I promise when we're old, we're gonna be best friends chasing each other around in our motor scooters all day long.
·          We're all a little weird. And life's a little weird. And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up in mutual weirdness and call it love.
·          I'm not afraid to fall; it means I climbed too high. Either way it shows at least I tried.
·          My best friends are like a fairytale. They've been there since once upon a time & will be there until forever after.
·          To hell with my pride. Tonight I want to cry.
·          It's completely impossible to find a guy who won't ever hurt you, so go for the guy who will make the pain worthwhile.
·          Love is just a serial killer and we're all innocent victims.
·          Spare me three last words I love you is all she heard
·          If you really want her tell her; because she can wait but she can t wait forever
·          Let's set the record straight. No one makes me smile quite like you do
·          Everything we've gone through & everything we've accomplished can never be explained in words.
·          Drama's made for movies, not reality.
20. I don't care about your imperfections that's what makes me adore you
·          Meet me at our old spot. I know it's been awhile, but I think we need to talk… I'm falling again.
·          So let's drink to the truth. Let's speak through drunken minds & say how much we truly love each other & tomorrow, we can go back to pretending that we hate each other.
·          You had me from the day you smiled.
·          He leaned over & kissed me. I kissed him back & then, our eyes met & it was like we both knew… So we smiled & kissed again. It was so perfect.
·          && I don't understand by the way you look at me why we can't be together.
·          I just want a different ending to our same old story. Let's try & make it last this time & prove them all wrong.
·          No matter how many times he hurts me, I will always forgive him. Some may call it stupid. I call it love.
·          I don't like missing you. But I love having you to miss.
·          30. She may be confused about a lot of things, but she knows the only time she's truly happy is when she's with him.
·          32. Let's kiss in the rain… Where the rain is so hard that the only thing we can see is each other.
·          33. I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor where I laid & told you, but you swore you loved me more.
·          34. Don't make her wait for you, just because you know she will.
·          35. She closes her eyes, as make-up runs& He got the best of her.
36. You're only young once, so be bad, break the rules, get caught… & make it count.
·          37. So what if I think too much or if I over analyze things. So what if I can't eat or sleep… At least you'll know why. You're always on my mind.
·          38. So just kiss me and let my hair messy itself in your fingers. Let me steady myself in the arms of a boy who won't ask me to be what he needs, but let's me exist as I am.
·          39. & Lately, she'd say anything to make him turn his head… anything just to make him laugh & just stare at her.
·          41. I regret every word I said to make him feel special.
·          42. Go ahead. Kiss her. I hope she bites your lip and you choke on the blood.
·          44. He means the world to her && doesn't even know it.
·          45. && Every time I try to give up hope whispers "ONE MORE TRY…"
·          46. Let s run away; we'll never look back.
·          47. The best kind of kiss is the un-expected; unplanned ones that come naturally. Like, in the middle of a sentence
·          48. Stand up for what you believe in - even if you re standing alone.
·          49. I want to kill you . . . but i'd kill for you all the time.
·          50. Sometimes one smile means more then a dozen roses.
·          51. Too hard to fake it nothing can replace it 
·          54. Never over look whats right in front of your eyes.
·          55. & Keep your head up kid because there are people killing to see you fall.
·          56. Every Time We Kiss. I Swear I CAN FLY
·          57. After a while; you'd think we'd eventually learn.
·          58. Note to self - first to last.
·          59. And so I ll sleep this life away, because my dreams are so sweet; now that you re in them. I don't want to leave this place without you
·          60. She wipes off the black rivers running down her un-made cheeks. She takes a deep breath in and steadies herself. She can do this, keep going, pull through; t h e-s h o w-m u s t-g o-o n
·          61. Take your damn fairy tale endings and your hopes, dreams, & wishes and shove them up your ass. This is the real world, && that shit just doesn't cut it anymore.
·          62. I have more feelings for you, than any other girl ever will.
·          63. Sleep is overrated we stay awake and cry if this is love, than kill me now and save me from my life
·          64. He looked at me & said, "Do you ever feel like you're working for something you're never going to get? It’s a shoot-&-miss kind of deal. Like, no matter what, you can't have it, but that makes you fight for it just a little bit more?" I looked at him, stared at him for a second, & replied, "everyday…"
·          65. Even if you & her are together, I guess that won't change us right? We'll still be friends, we'll still laugh together. We'll still smile at each other are friendship will still be there, & we'll be ok.won't we?
·          66. Never let success get to your head and never let failure get to your heart.
·          67. It's all just magic when I think about you. & When I'm not with you, I go crazy.
·          68. True faith is to have confidence in who God is.
·          69. She s an artist-a painter actually; see that 'smile' on her face? Well it's her most famous piece.
·          70. Love is about being cute and stupid together not being in bed together.
·          71. You can't tell your heart what to do it does it all on it's own
·          73. Isn t if funny how day-by-day nothing changes, but then when you look back, everything is different
·          74. There is an inner beauty about a woman who believes in herself, who knows she is capable of anything that she puts her mind to. There is a beauty in the strength and determination of a woman who follows her own path, who isn't thrown off by obstacles along the way. There is a beauty about a woman whose confidence comes from experiences; who knows she can fall, pick herself up, and move on.
·          76. Yeah and I would recommend that you live with no regrets, and even if it seems like the world is crashing on you, you shouldn't let it hold you down.
·          77. That is what we do. That is what people do. They stay alive for each other..
·          78. I remember when you were falling and I was they re just holding onto you
·          79. If I could re-arrange the alphabet, I d put U & I together.
·          80. Gravity is not responsible for people falling in love. -Albert Einstein
·          81. A woman knows when a man looks into her eyes & sees someone else. -The Notebook<3
·          82. Whoever said that nothing is impossible has obviously never tried to slam a revolving door.
·          84. If I kept you too close, it was because I wanted to keep you longer. - A Walk to Remember
·          85. My heart is that crack in the sidewalk, that you walk on everyday.
·          86. I agree with the dictionary. Girls before guys, studying before partying, & friends before love.
·          87. Sweetie, you can't fight fate. Whatever happens happens.
·          88. Just like ipods, nowadays, hearts are being played all over the -[world.]-
·          89. Whatever it takes, or how my heartbreaks, I will be right here waiting for you. -Right Here Waiting
·          90. Falling for him once: temptation. Falling for him twice: destiny getting your heart broken. A mistake letting it happen again: unstoppable
·          91. Since I ve seen you I haven't been the same it seems every time I see you, I find myself gasping for air.
·          92. I ve never felt like this before my knee's are shaking my heart beat's faster my palms all sweaty no this can't be love.
·          93. Something about you baby drive's me crazy something about this guy blow's my mind away something about you baby…
·          94. I want to be with you.till death&after it.
·          95. I never believed in "love at first site" well until the day I saw you.
·          96. Realize what's important in your life what you can live with, but more importantly, what you cant live without.
·          97. Falling in love is what keeps us from falling apart. ç??
·          98. Death is life s way of saying, "you're fired." suicide is your way of saying, and “I quit."
·          99. & This mood of mine is only temporary, just like your feelings.
·          100. Love doesn t need a reason; if you can explain why you love someone, it s not love, it s like.
·          101. In the end, you ll be happy. & If you’re not happy, it.s not the end.
·          102. If my radio breaks, will you sing to me?
·          103. The hardest thing in this world is to find someone who knows all your flaws, differences, and mistakes but still loves everything about you.
·          104. I don t wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why every time I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don’t wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be a murderer.
·          105. The truth may hurt me, but your lies kill me.
·          106. And I know this could ruin me, but I d risk it all for you&
·          107. Love is like dominoes, one wrong move & everything you’ve worked for falls apart.
·          108. She s just another girl believing in something that will never happen.
·          109. There's no past tense in loving someone. It's either you do or you never did.
·          110. I must be a pretty good liar for you to honestly think that everything's alright.
·          111. Girls are like telephones they like to be held and talked to but push the wrong button and you'll be disconnected.
·          112. I thought you were my friend, but now you acting. All fake&
·          113. Spongebob&patrick that was us now we’re like superman&kryptonite 
·          117. Sometimes I feel like the last cookie in the jar; all alone & broken.
·          118. We can t call people without wings angels. Instead, we call them friends.
·          119. Someone said your name & asked me if I knew you. I looked down, wiped away my tears, & said, "no, not anymore."
·          120. It s sweet-talkers like you that make girls fall in love&fall apart.
·          121. The best boyfriend you'll have isn’t the best looking, the funniest, or the richest. Its the one that makes you feel gorgeous, hilarious, and like a million dollars. He makes sure you know he loves you.
·          122. Friendship is easily turned into love but love is very hard to turn back into friendship
·          123. Family is who you choose it to be.
·          124. [Guys are like stars] there are millions of them but only one will make your dreams come true.
·          125. Welcome to the stage, lights up, masks on.
·          126. In a world full of lies, how are you supposed to know which ones are true?
·          127. You live so you can learn. You love so you can feel. You fall so you can become stronger.
·          128. Pain is just weakness leaving the body.
·          129. It s crazy, how even no matter how much I try to not think about you, that memories of us play across my mind almost all the time, no pause.
·          130. Why have I become numb to everything but the things that I wish were?
·          131. You've just gotta hang on when your hearts had enough, & give more than you want to give up; Because if it's meant to be, Then it's worth it, you'll see.
·          132. Love is not being able to just give up, no matter how much it hurts, how much you want to. Your heart knows something is real, and unlike some people, it s patient enough to wait for the other half to realize it.
·          133. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop. </3
·          134. They say that eyes are the windows to the soul, to the heart..well why can't he understand what I’m going through then?!
·          135. True love is when you shed a tear, and still want him. It's when he ignores the fact that you still love him. It's when you know he loves another girl, but you still smile and say I'm happy for you, really, when all you really want to do is cry.
·          136. Yes, I miss you. Just wanted you to know, just in case you started to care or something
·          137. I am really trying hard to figure out, just where I went wrong, just where I screwed everything up.:(
·          138. I saw him staring at me, not glancing, but blatantly staring. & I wondered if he was staring at the wreckage that he created, or maybe..just maybe..he regretted it.
·          139. You know what it is that you want, you're just afraid to admit it because you're afraid of falling. Fuck that. Fuck your fears. You know what you want, which is a hell of a lot more than most people, so don't be afraid or ashamed, just go out and get it.
·          140. She needs someone to put the light back in her eyes, and the color back to her cheeks.
·          141. In a way, I actually kinda do hope that you don't know what you're doing to me, because if you knew, then you would be proving that you would be perfectly fine with me living like this..
·        142. I don't know what I did to lose our friendship, but not being able to talk to you is killing me.
·          143. My past has changed me forever, I can't rewind the moments, to change what I could have done.
·          144. He means everything to her, and he just has no clue, that her hope that he might someday stand by her again, is basically the only thing keeping her alive. </3
·          145. I hate the fact that it seems like you just live your life, as if I seriously don't even exist. Everything we were, everything we had, everything we became, did, and could be; seems to be a forgotten memory in your mind. Do you even see me?
·          146. So this is really how life is, how love feels. To have a first crush, first date, first kiss. First let down, first tumble, first show of it all. Fall down, stay around, then back up again;
This is the circle, never ends till the realness begins. <3
·          Here it goes,
One more time,
‘Gonna try and figure this out,
Nothing's right, it seems so wrong,
Please just help me get through this, still alive.
Find the truth,
One more try,
Gotta find the heart from your love,
The one you've hidden so deep.
Everywhere I go,
No one I ever see, but think bout you.
Every glance, every thought,.
Leads me into being more and more distraught.
·          If you knew, if you really knew what you were doing to me…would you change anything? Would you try and fix things back to the way that they used to be? Would you even care? Or would you go on living as if I didn’t exist and you didn’t even know me – kinda like how you do now anyways?
·          Did I even mean anything to you at all? Everything that we started with, everything that we dealt with, everything that we were, everything that we became& does it mean nothing to you at all?
·          My music makes me dangerous, Its like I'm not even here, I'm in another place, another time, all alone or in a crowd, when the music's in, I'm nowhere to be found.
·          My music is my escape, my refuge from the world, from pain.
·          Break dance, break rules, not hearts; healing hearts back is a Hell of a lot harder.
·          I'm cutting my phone off by choice for once. Not because I don't want to get in trouble?! But because I know that you re not going to text me, or call, or even think about me, so why bother wishing, and checking my phone every two minutes? What's the point?
·          Amazing, how you knew me so fucking well last year, to turn around and be a complete stranger, in a course of about a month. That's impossible. Either you never really knew or understood me, or you're a heck of a lot better at acting than I thought. But if it is the latter…then you know how much you’re hurting me; you’re fine with that? Then I’d be fine if you completely left my life then.
·          It's amazing how many people believe me when I smile.        

 

--You cant always be with who you want, You cant always do what you want, You cant always forget your mistakes, and you cant always hold back your tears, but in the end you can always tell who truly cares, no matter how hard it is to understand, you always know..♥

--If you l o v e something, set it f r e e if it comes back, it was m e a n t to be. If it continues to f l y, let it soar, && have f a i t h that God has something b e t t e r in store.♥

lost in the moments

Did you notice the snow was gone? It’s not the only thing. The footprints left along the sides, they’re not there anymore, like the roads, secrets, moments. They fade away in time. Remember that of which you choose. Memories are all that last forever. Find the days, the feelings, the lifechanging times, and hold those as close to your heart as you can. Never let them go. Make them last the test of time. You’ll find how strong you truly are, once you realize what you should hold, what you should let go, and what you should throw as far as you can away and run like hell to the protection.

Make the most of every moment, because you will never know when that moment will mean the most one day.

adrenaline: Do you ever wonder how you really lose someone from your life? Is it gradual? You just slowly fall apart, going your different ways; you barely notice? Or is it all at once? Like when being hit with the realization of what’s important, what’s worth it, what’s lies and what’s not meant to be? Maybe it’s both. You may can’t help what happens, but you can always give it a chance and fix it. It’s your life. It’s confusing, but it’s a roller coaster ride. You gotta let go. Hold your head up, wave your arms and scream as loud as you can, laugh, love the rush, the freefall. You get one ride. Make it amazing.

Someday, you'll ask me to marry you and with no doubts I'll say yes. Someday, your last name will be my last name. Someday we'll live together, in the house of our dreams. Someday we'll name our kids, with names we adore. & when those days come, I'll love you even more. ♥